A Love That’s Limitless

Remember when we were in a drought and had all of these concerns about not having enough water in Salt Lake? Well I’m glad we’ll never have that issue again. If you’re just on your own planet like laadeeedooo (I find myself doing this often) and haven’t looked outside, well, it’s snowing. A shit ton. I think the appropriate name for it is the Winter that never went away. I don’t know, but anyways, I don’t feel like discussing the snow anymore.

Maria bought the book “The Law Of Attraction” by Jack Canfield, so we have been reading it together. There are some really amazing exercises that have helped me come to a few conclusions… One of them is this: I want an equal. I hope you know that this isn’t my life focus – Finding my equal I mean. The biggest thing I am working on is self-love and embracing the many flaws I have. Oh and not losing my mind in the process.

I believe that you can’t love anyone until you truly love yourself. In The Law Of Attraction it asks you to write down what you want in every aspect of your life. A few of these things are Personal goals, relationships, travel, financial, family, and so on. When I turned to “Relationships” the first thing that came to my mind was this, “Someone who cares”. For some reason I attract people that take but never show any form of gratitude and that can be frustrating. I don’t even really expect anything specific back, I just want to know that you love and appreciate me.

I also want someone that can grow with me. Not physically obviously but intellectually. There have been a couple situations where I have dated someone and I felt myself outgrowing them in a short amount of time. This doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with them… It just means we change at different levels. The ideal thing for me would be for us to grow as individuals and teach one another in a healthy loving way.

Also, I’m not sure if it’s possible but I’d love to find a man that can grab my attention and truly hold onto it. I have met plenty of people who are so interesting and I am interested in them. Unfortunately they begin to bore me. There are days where I am so passionate and excited about something, I just want to share it with the world. What would it be like to have someone who felt just as much passion and excitement? Someone who’s eager to learn and make a difference somewhere, whether it be in this world as a whole or in one persons day.

My therapist Linda and I were talking about natural gifts in people and what they are. Two natural gifts I have are my spirituality and the ability to nurture. I am able to meditate effortlessly and taking care of people/animals is a true passion I have. It doesn’t really matter what or who it is, if you’re in need I want to be there. Sometimes I’ve wondered if that makes me odd because not everyone wants to fall to the side of someone in need and give their full attention and energy to that persons pain regardless of the relationship with them. Linda has helped me stopped thinking that way and I will be grateful everyday of my life for that. She has helped me see my joy in nurturing others as a beautiful thing instead of seeing it as a flaw. So that is another thing I would love to have in a man…. The ability to take care of me just like I want to take care of him. Now don’t get it twisted, I am and always will be an independent woman no matter what my relationship “status” is. No man can ever do for me what I can’t do for myself.

There are so many things we all want when it comes to a partner. What makes it difficult is finding someone with the same “wants”.  This afternoon I was thinking about this and asked my aunt how old she was when she met my Uncle Gregg. She was 32. She said that although it was a long time, he was worth the wait.. I believe that is what makes this journey so outstanding, the wait.

My curiosity is limitless when it comes to all the different types of people in this world. I hope to travel, meet, and learn from as many of you as possible. For now I am learning and loving from the gems right here in front of me. Thank you for coming into my life and being a life lesson without doing anything other then being you… Never forget how beautiful and brilliant you are, every single one of you. We all tend to forget that we are endless stories of wisdom, strength, and beauty – And there is someone out there reading your story over and over again, mesmerized by the lessons he/she finds in it and the absolutely gorgeous soul that created it. So here’s to you, babe. Namaste loves

Quote of the day:

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
— Bob Marley