Remember when we were in a drought and had all of these concerns about not having enough water in Salt Lake? Well I’m glad we’ll never have that issue again. If you’re just on your own planet like laadeeedooo (I find myself doing this often) and haven’t looked outside, well, it’s snowing. A shit ton. I think the appropriate name for it is the Winter that never went away. I don’t know, but anyways, I don’t feel like discussing the snow anymore.
Maria bought the book “The Law Of Attraction” by Jack Canfield, so we have been reading it together. There are some really amazing exercises that have helped me come to a few conclusions… One of them is this: I want an equal. I hope you know that this isn’t my life focus – Finding my equal I mean. The biggest thing I am working on is self-love and embracing the many flaws I have. Oh and not losing my mind in the process.
I believe that you can’t love anyone until you truly love yourself. In The Law Of Attraction it asks you to write down what you want in every aspect of your life. A few of these things are Personal goals, relationships, travel, financial, family, and so on. When I turned to “Relationships” the first thing that came to my mind was this, “Someone who cares”. For some reason I attract people that take but never show any form of gratitude and that can be frustrating. I don’t even really expect anything specific back, I just want to know that you love and appreciate me.
I also want someone that can grow with me. Not physically obviously but intellectually. There have been a couple situations where I have dated someone and I felt myself outgrowing them in a short amount of time. This doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with them… It just means we change at different levels. The ideal thing for me would be for us to grow as individuals and teach one another in a healthy loving way.
Also, I’m not sure if it’s possible but I’d love to find a man that can grab my attention and truly hold onto it. I have met plenty of people who are so interesting and I am interested in them. Unfortunately they begin to bore me. There are days where I am so passionate and excited about something, I just want to share it with the world. What would it be like to have someone who felt just as much passion and excitement? Someone who’s eager to learn and make a difference somewhere, whether it be in this world as a whole or in one persons day.
My therapist Linda and I were talking about natural gifts in people and what they are. Two natural gifts I have are my spirituality and the ability to nurture. I am able to meditate effortlessly and taking care of people/animals is a true passion I have. It doesn’t really matter what or who it is, if you’re in need I want to be there. Sometimes I’ve wondered if that makes me odd because not everyone wants to fall to the side of someone in need and give their full attention and energy to that persons pain regardless of the relationship with them. Linda has helped me stopped thinking that way and I will be grateful everyday of my life for that. She has helped me see my joy in nurturing others as a beautiful thing instead of seeing it as a flaw. So that is another thing I would love to have in a man…. The ability to take care of me just like I want to take care of him. Now don’t get it twisted, I am and always will be an independent woman no matter what my relationship “status” is. No man can ever do for me what I can’t do for myself.
There are so many things we all want when it comes to a partner. What makes it difficult is finding someone with the same “wants”. This afternoon I was thinking about this and asked my aunt how old she was when she met my Uncle Gregg. She was 32. She said that although it was a long time, he was worth the wait.. I believe that is what makes this journey so outstanding, the wait.
My curiosity is limitless when it comes to all the different types of people in this world. I hope to travel, meet, and learn from as many of you as possible. For now I am learning and loving from the gems right here in front of me. Thank you for coming into my life and being a life lesson without doing anything other then being you… Never forget how beautiful and brilliant you are, every single one of you. We all tend to forget that we are endless stories of wisdom, strength, and beauty – And there is someone out there reading your story over and over again, mesmerized by the lessons he/she finds in it and the absolutely gorgeous soul that created it. So here’s to you, babe. Namaste loves
Quote of the day:
— Bob Marley