A Day of Affirmation

You know what I love? Moments in life where it all clicks. Today I was sitting in my Psychology class and all of a sudden it came together: I am in the right place with the right people, doing exactly what I need to be doing. It seems so simple but it was such a profound feeling for me.

I’ve been so nervous about saying goodbye to my “break” from school. “What if I can’t find my class? What if I get a parking ticket? Will my classmates be inviting? Will my teacher and I work well together? What if I fail?” I was freaking. OUT.

I questioned my ability to find balance between my education in the classroom and my education in my everyday life. The life I created once I made the decision to focus on self-discovery ended up being tough, but absolutely beautiful once I got the hang of things. But tonight I realized that I am not letting go of that life, I am simply adding to it.

Let me break this down real quick. My professor also teaches yoga (my first OMG) She teaches Psych at Westminster (my dream school) as well, and she mentioned that one of her greatest passions is being a mother to her two daughters. She assigned the first chapter of the book for homework, and asked us to watch a TED talk. Hi, I was in heaven.

The TED talk happens to be something I watched a few weeks ago, and it absolutely blew me away. And the presenter is a 13-year-old boy. I strongly encourage you to watch it. It’s called Hackschooling makes me happy (click to be taken to the video) My professor, Miss Cain, encourages us to do whatever it takes to “hack” this class to our liking.

I started the day with an amazing workout, went to work and connected with all of my amazing students and colleagues, and then had the opportunity to go to school and have my mind and heart opened up in multiple ways. I’m feeling pretty ecstatic about life right now. Today taught me this: We lose ourselves in the things we love, and we find ourselves there, too.

This is the smile I had to keep to myself until I got to my house and shut my front door. Oh, the joys of being the biggest, happiest dork on the planet right now. I can’t wait to see what tomorrow brings. I hope life is spoiling you with similar moments like I had today.

All my love and giddy-ness,

Bailey Mikell

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It’s How You See Yourself

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“Your job is to see people as they really are, and to do this, you have to know who you are in the most compassionate possible sense. Then you can recognize others.” -Anne Lamott

Do you understand? Read it twice. Love every inch of yourself. Embrace every good part and every bad part about you — do it without making up excuses. Be humble. Be gentle. And then it will all begin to make sense. 

XOXO, Bailey Mikell

Anais Nin

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“My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.” -Anais Nin

Sweeter Than Others

Dear January 14th…. we are in a fight.

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BUT, lets celebrate the beauty of today instead of highlighting the negative. I decided to take my frustration out in the kitchen and bake the cutest little banana bran muffins you’ve ever seen.

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And of course I spilled granola all over my kitchen floor during the process. But don’t worry, Roman was there to provide me with some assistance..

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AAAAND…. Lincoln turned 2 at the end of December & I couldn’t be more proud of the sweet boy that he is. I do believe being an auntie is one of the biggest blessings in the world. We played with his new toys, ate cupcakes, and smooched goodnight. I love him very much.

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It’s colder than a witches tit in the ‘tah. I’ve come to the conclusion that copious amounts of tea, bloody mary’s (which I’ve mastered), beer, and football are the only solution to the temperature being in single digits. Keep calm & drink/cheer the 49ers on.

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“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.”  Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
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Winter is always the hardest season for me, so meditation, yoga & daily affirmations are key to staying centered & balanced. The problem is I close my eyes for 10 minutes & when I open them this is my first thought….
what the fuck was I thinking about?
Oops. Some seasons are simply sweeter than others. Speaking of sweet, I decided to stop being an asshole & start dating again (& I may or may not have a crush…) What has January been treating you with? I miss all of you. Reach out to me so that we can reconnect, I’d love to hear what’s going on in your world.
All my love until next time, Bailey Mikell

Enliven

“The minute you begin to do what you really want to do, it’s really a different kind of life.”

-Buckminster Fuller

Follow your bliss, little bird… That is where you will find the greatest adventures.

Sleepy Head + a Clear Mind

I love, love, love Dalai Lama. He is the 14th Dalai Lama of Tibet & a truly incredible man whose wisdom has guided me back to the right track many times in my life. This whole back & forth situation is really taking a toll on my emotional well-being, so I’m trying to fill myself up with his beautiful lessons. I went to bed at 10:30 last night, but somehow I’m still tired & suffering from sudden short-term memory loss. Think of a cranky 3-year-old in an already-sassy 20 something’s body. Not cool, yo. Not cool at all..

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You know, this little quote is about all I need right now. Oh, that’s a lie. I could really go for a fried PB&J (nom, nom, nom) All my sleepy headed-ness & ready-to-be-clear-mind, Bee

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For more of Dalai Lama’s teachings go to his official site by clicking here 

You Will Be Stronger

You had me second guess myself so many times that I’d be surprised to find a single doubt within if you asked me to look today. You led me astray more times than I chose to count. I fell flat on my face but I didn’t ever give up. My phone bill teetered towards overage charges for the first time since high school; I sobbed to my mum so many times our plan couldn’t keep up, yet somehow she always did. It’s been since I said farewell to my childhood that my lips have trembled like they did during this month. I crumbled in situations that I’d usually be holding down.

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And sometimes, if the stars aligned just right, I’d be at the end of a gut-wrenching day doing my best to catch my breath & I would suddenly find myself in an opulent moment. After letting those sporadic moments of bliss amongst blur confuse me for a while, I started using them as fuel: I knew if I consistently fought until I couldn’t anymore I’d start to see results. Slowly but surely, things began making sense.

April, I know we didn’t always see eye to eye, but our 30 days of trial & error together splashed color on my white walls & infused a deep appreciation within. Thank you for kicking me in the ass even though I was usually still trying to get up from the last time. And, thank you for teaching me how to be strong even when I am alone. I reached out to my incredible loved ones a lot, to say the least, but whenever a new situation arose I had to learn to adjust (still learning how)

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I guess I’ve decided that a firm reality check isn’t always the sweetest cup of tea, but it sure does make a pretty little promise — that this too shall pass, and when it does, you will be stronger. 

All my love until we meet again next year, xoxo, your little warrior

“April hath put a spirit of youth in everything.” (Sonnet XCVIII) -William Shakespeare