At 11:45 last night I received an email inviting me to a press conference with NASA representatives at the OC Tanner Lounge. At 4:30 I will go to gather some information & do some interviewing. My stomach is already in knots. I will be sure to walk at a normal speed vs. speed walking so that I don’t show up with beads of sweat on my glistening forehead. Serious. I wish it were a joke but it definitely is not. The beautiful thing about life is if you are willing to expand your horizons you can meet some truly incredible people. I just need to work on not being intimidated by them. Or sweating on them.
Yesterday was a 12 hour work day for me. I know many people work that & more on a regular basis but I’m not quite accustom to it. After that I worked on my interview. I went to bed exhausted but relieved that I had done everything I could do with the day I was given. And so here we are with another opportunity & I am so eager to shape it into the productive, positive, educational day I know it can be.
I saw this on Pinterest & immediately thought of my person, my sister, my other half — Kelsey Loraine. We talked on the phone last night about sacrificing now so that we can live a more fulfilled life later. I have expressed my concerns to her about my success at school, so she gave me a pep talk which involved Lance Armstrong & his will to be a champion.
Naturally, we both have aspects in our lives that are testing us right now. We were raised by strong women and I know we can overcome these obstacles. It’s just nice to know that at the end of the day I have her to go to when I am discouraged & overwhelmed with doubt.
When I send my article in at 8:59 p.m I will shut my computer, play this song, close my eyes & meet you here.
“A beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like you’ve been drinking Jack and Coke all morning. She can make you feel high, full of the single greatest commodity known to man – promise. Promise of a better day. Promise of a greater hope. Promise of a new tomorrow. This particular aura can be found in the gaze of a beautiful girl. In her smile, in her soul, in the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like it’s going to be okay.”
“Life is here and it is now… Either we meet it, we live it or we miss it. All life resides in the narrow margin and the board espanse of the moment. It is in the doing, the dreaming, and feeling, and the caring. It is always present in a glorious attempt, a lofty dream, a brilliant insight, an irreplaceable experience, a calming breath, an unbelievable feeling and an irreplaceable passion.”
I have so many beautiful women in my life. Everyday I think to myself, ‘Really? Each of them seem to shine just a bit more then the day before.
One of those girls is the fabulous Elana. She and I think so much alike it’s crazy. I truly admire her inner & outer beauty. Elana has supported my passion for writing since day one. Often her ‘likes’ and comments make it all worth it. Earlier this week she gave me the idea to print out my favorite posts from Commander In Chic to compile a book. It would not be a book with chapters – I imagine it being something you would keep on your coffee table or desk.
I’d like it to be something you could grab for a quick dose of daily inspiration & self empowerment. This is something that is clearly in the beginning stages, but I think that picking the best posts on each anniversary of CIC would be perfect. So the first book would be called “Commander In Chic: One”
If you have a favorite post that hits close to home or inspired you more then usual I would love to hear about it. I will start compiling these posts and begin the creation of this book. Would it be something you would consider purchasing? March 20th will be ‘Commander In Chics’ birthday! This journey has been miraculous, and I would not have shared it with anyone but you. Thank you…
Ps. Check out Elana’s Photography – She does an incredible job & will bring the beauty you never knew existed to the surface.
One of my favorite books is called ‘It’s Never Too Late’. It has 171 simple acts that can change your life. I enjoy reading it from time to time when I am at loss for inspiration or just need a pick me up. It’s small enough to toss in your purse or keep next to your desk. It’s nice to just flip to a random page and keep that wisdom close to you throughout your day. I want to share two of my favorite things in this book with you this morning. I hope you love them as much as I do…
It’s Never Too Late To… Break away from the herd.
It can take cold courage. It’s your chance to follow your heart, lift your head up, choose your own course. It can bring disdain and abuse. But it will also bring esteem and admiration. But, above all, it brings self respect. Stand on your own feet. Be an individual.
It’s Never Too Late To… Reinvent Yourself
You are what you make of yourself. Not what others want you to be. If you don’t like the direction in which you’re heading, change… Set some goals: Short, meduim, long-term goals. Consider the new path you need to take. Take that path. Back your judgement.
I sat straight up in bed, it was pitch black, and I had nothing to say but ‘fuc*’
For no reason at all. Sometimes when dreams & reality clash it’s a strange awakening. I guess that is kind of what I experienced this morning. My makeup is on from yesterday & my hair looks like I never went to bed. I’ve already finished a can of coconut juice, a cinnamon roll, & taken all of my vitamins. I fell asleep relieved & rose covered with a cape of nerves & a bit of wonder. I suppose we all have days where we go into deeper thought then our typical day. It doesn’t necessarily deserve to be classified as a ‘bad mood’, just a different mood. No matter what I’m feeling, I’m simply grateful I have the ability to do so. That I can express my emotions in more ways then even I have explored. My options are endless, the world has given me a life of no limits. Just as it has for you. To live everyday with a peaceful mind… That is what I hope to do. To give each heartbeat credit beyond a thud, your strong legs that carry you respect, and to feel brave enough to allow your mind a bit of freedom when society pushes nothing but structure.