Take Your Baby by the Hand

Yesterday I spent a couple hours in bed after work with some weird bug. Andy brought me Kneaders & I soon realized how much some solid food and rest can do for a girl (one of those “duh” moments). Shortly after I was up and at it around the house. The next 4 weeks will be a bit chaotic around here because it is the end of the semester. Having my home in a good state should contribute to the fight for sanity during finals.

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I’d say I’m ‘trying to get my wardrobe organized‘… but lets be real, when am I not trying to get my wardrobe organized?? It’s a year round, never-ending thing. All of my girlfriends know what I’m talking about… They’ve all been over for bags of clothes that my ass outgrew or the 6 shirts I bought because ‘they match my shoes’  (that I don’t need & that look exactly alike). But sometimes you’re left with some gems & those clothes are just too pretty to keep hidden in the closet — which is why the clothes rack was invented. Mine is coming along and I am quite pleased with it. Someday when I’m not too ghetto to buy the wooden hangers I will. But that day is not today.

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I hit a wall at about 11:30 and that’s when I found Andy in the kitchen. He had been setting his computer up for work & finally got his speakers to work. Wang Chung was blasting & you could tell he was trying so hard not to break out in a full on dance (he was doing the slow & discreet foot shuffle while his arms swung back n’ forth a bit. hilarious)

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Next thing you know we’re dancing in the kitchen to ‘Dance Hall Days’ while he twirls me around in my painting/cleaning clothes & sings along to every word. We almost made it through the whole song but our asses are out-of-SHAPE (& we both needed a drink)

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We of course played Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd  & Can’t You See by the Marshall Tucker Band. I’m convinced these are the moments that true love is found, over & over again. Happy Friday sweets, I hope you take the time to dance with someone you love this weekend. Even if it’s just a bit of shufflin’ & swinging of the arms. It’ll feel good, I promise.

Bee

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Good Girls Don’t Grow On Trees

Alright, can I get a hell yeah for Cris Cab? He is my new favorite artist (besides Frank Ocean, of course) I’m still browsing through his music to make sure it’s love and not lust. Either way one thing’s for sure, I am definitely in full on ‘like’ with Cris Cab.

The opening lyrics to his song “Good Girls” is:

“Hey man, I’ve learned my lesson 
Got a good girl, count your blessings”

But what really stole my heart was this:

“good girls don’t grow on trees”

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Oh hi, I’m sold! I love that because it is so true. It is so hard to find a partner that can give & understand the unique love your heart desires. We are all different therefore we all need different types of love. Unfortunately honesty, respect, patience, trust and kindness are becoming less important; The definition of a “healthy relationship” is very misunderstood to the men & women of my generation. Many of us have forgotten what it really means to love and be loved. 

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I do know one thing — Any woman will tell you this: a good man is hard to find & even harder to keep. I’m sure of it, because my town has an abnormal amount of douche-bags-in-diesels and a lack of gentlemen (not that I’m looking, but they’re everywhere! it scares me. ) But it goes the same for men, because like Cris Cab says, good girls don’t grow on trees. We have to honor, cherish, and embrace the beautiful relationships and love we have in our lives. Surround yourself with people that make you feel excited — I can honestly say I have people in my life that make my stomach feel like a million fireflies are having a freaking fiesta in there. Absolutely electric. They encourage me to be the best woman I can be. Because of those people I believe in my dreams and I’m brave enough to do anything & everything in order to reach them. Those are the kind of people we all deserve to have in our lives.

At the end of the day this is my opinion, so as my grandmother says “take it, leave it, file it away, or never look at it again”. Alls I’m sayin’ is I encourage you to be picky about one thing: the type of love/people you choose to surround yourself with.

It can change your life.

Stay With You

Stay With You – John Legend

We’ve been together for a while now
We’re growing stronger everyday now
It feels so good and there’s no doubt
I will stay with you as each morning brings sunrise
And the flowers bloom in springtime
On my love you can rely
And I’ll stay with you

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Oh I’ll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I’ll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we’ll be alright
I will stay with you

No Room For ‘What If’s’

Plenty of change has come into my life in the last two weeks. We’ve reached the busiest time of the year in the office, which resulted in adding some new fabulous recruiters to the team to spread the work load out a little bit. Andy packed his things and moved to Logan to start a new chapter of his life, while I stayed here to continue mine. I’ve started classes at SLCC for the Fall semester, but decided to take a different route and do classes online. So that has left me with plenty of things to adjust to, to say the least. Even though work is busier I’ve found myself even happier. I still leave that office with a smile on my face. School is going good so far, I’m taking my first Communications class and feel like the book for class is far from a ‘textbook’. I’m eager to learn & grateful for the opportunity to do so while balancing my work schedule.

I’ve also decided that it’s time to take my health more seriously. I’ve started Herbalife and couldn’t be more excited to see how my body reacts to it. It is amazing for weight-loss, but that isn’t specifically what I’m doing it for. I’m more focused on making sure my body is getting the correct nutrients and a healthy balance of food. My odd eating & sleeping habits started effecting me in too many ways. Quitting smoking was the first thing on the list. I then decided to stop drinking coffee and go back to tea. I’m packing lunches for work instead of eating fried pickles (ha) and working out at least 3 times a week. Today is my first day so I’ll keep ya’all updated on how things are going.

Once again, I was amazed at how things in life work out. I was hired at American Academy the same day that Andy was offered a position in Logan. Ironic right? My emotions were all over the place, I literally went from tears of joy to tears from shock. I knew it was for the best, but I wasn’t thrilled about the fact that the man I love was moving 2 hours away. Call me selfish, but it was a hard pill to swallow. We made a decision together and saw that it was too good to pass up. So here I am in Small Lake City, holding it down my very best and having faith that it will all work out in the end. This is the test. If we can make it through the next month and a half we’ll be just fine. I still have mixed emotions about moving to Logan. I’ve lived in Salt Lake my entire life. It’s fair to say this is the biggest decision I have made in a long time. But, with all of that pushed aside, I am looking forward to starting my life with my best friend and creating a life of love, trust, and happiness. I can’t wait to go home to him everyday. It will be hard, but I don’t have a doubt in my mind that this is the very best decision for us.

I applied to Utah State even though the thought of a University scares the bejesus out of me. I realize it’s a silly thing to be scared of. But I don’t even feel like I know what’s going on at the Community College half of the time. Not kidding. It will be a big step but I guess I’m just going to put my big girl panties on and go for it.

Anyway, there’s your summary. I’ve been hesitant to write about moving to Logan because everyone has their own opinion on what’s right and what’s wrong. But one of my favorite songs by Rihanna puts it perfectly, ‘People gon’ talk whether you’re doin’ bad or good’. So I’m following this heart of mine and saying yes!! Yes to a new adventure and a beautiful fresh start. My life doesn’t have any room for ‘what if’s’. All I need is love. And that is just what I’ve been given… XOXO 

Keep On Singing My Song

This morning I was driving & listening to Christina Aguileras CD ‘Stripped’. I fell in love with it when it was first released and it has never lost its touch, it will be a favorite album of mine forever. Keep On Singing My Song‘ came on & out of nowhere I got the chills. I’ve listened to it more times then I can count & have had the lyrics memorized since I bought the CD years ago. The difference is this: Years ago I had no idea what it meant to experience something that could make you question your ability to move on. As we grow, we gain new experiences, some good, some bad. We are also confronted with more serious things to deal with. I am a strong believer that it’s not about what happens to you but how you react to it. Unfortunately, I struggle with practicing what I preach at times because I have had an extremely hard time letting some things go that have happened in the last year, and because of that, I have been unintentionally holding myself back. Instead of allowing myself to feel the emotions that come with any type of loss or defeat and then continuing with my life I have dwelled on the, ‘What if’s’ and ‘Why me’s?’. The fact is, it is easier to accept what you are presented with in life and grow from it as a strong individual then it is to sit and boil your positivity away in a pot full of negative thoughts. Everything happens for a reason and there is a lesson within every experience. So these lyrics really touched me and I have decided to make it my mantra…. Because for me, it fits. It gives me confidence that I can do whatever I set my mind to. It helps me check myself before I WRECK myself trying to live my life pleasing everyone else but MYSELF. It brings my individuality to mind and helps me live my life as nobody but my authentic self. It restores my faith… and it reminds me that ‘Every step I’m ’bout to take moves towards a better day’.  How’s that for a few fan-fuckin-tastic things that you get from just one single song?? I’ll take it. XOXO

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
And nobody’s gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothing’s been going my way lately
But I decided right here, an’ now, that my outlook’s gonna change
That’s why I’m gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I’ve cried
Everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feelin’ like they won’t let me live life
Take the time to look at what is mine

I see every blessing so clearly
And I thank God for what I got from above

Chorus:
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can’t succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I’m gonna carry on (Carry on)
I’mma keep on (keep on) singin’ my song

(La, la, la, etc.)

I never wanna dwell on the pain again
There’s no use in relivin’ how I hurt back then
Rememberin’ too well the hell I felt when I was runnin’ out of faith
Every step I’m ’bout to take moves towards a better day
Cause I’m about to
Say farewell to every single lie
And all the fears I’ve held too long inside
Everytime I felt I couldn’t try
All the negativity inside

For too long, I’ve been strugglin’, couldn’t go on
But now I’ve found I’m feelin’ strong and I’m moving on

Chorus:
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can’t succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me
But I’m gonna carry on, (carry on)
I’mma keep on (keep on) singin’ my song

Every time I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally, so I ended up in misery
Was unable to see all the good around me
Wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Than simply just remembering to breathe
I’m humanly unable to please everyone at the same time
So now I find my peace of mind living one day at a time

In the end I answer to one god
Comes down to one love till I get to heaven above

I have made the decision
Never to give in
Till the I day I die no matter what
Im gonna carry on, I’mma keep on singin’ my song
(They can’t take anything from me)