Every morning at the bachelorette pad is not always calm and peaceful with Buddhist bells and incense and happy little quotes. It’s just not.
Sometimes I wake up and I just need to play this song while I’m in the shower. It’s honestly such a good way to get stoked about the day and a favorite throwback of mine. There is nothing like dancing around the house at 6 a.m with a toothbrush in your mouth, wet hair, and a cute pair of underwear. I know you’ve got it in you… go ‘head. Shake it fast.
Sometimes when I study really hard I take a break, close my eyes, and daydream. I’m currently drifting on the thought of having a beautiful patio someday.. I’ll curl up with a cup of tea and my favorite book and soak up the peace and quiet. Or, maybe even the pitter patter of little chitlins running around and the laughter of my family… :)
I’ve always been such a dreamer. Where do you go when your mind wanders?
It’s so funny how there are times when you think you have your life situation all figured out. You walk around in your underwear and a big ole hoodie while you dance in the living room to prepare for the day (oh, you don’t do that? you should..) You crave the little rush of confidence you get when you approach a challenge and you’re able to say to yourself “I’ve got this shit.” You wake up, you know you’ve got a plan, and you run through it like you’ve practiced it a million times. Flawless. You go to bed, dream big, wake up with a purpose and do it even better than the day before. It’s rare, but it’s so amazing when you set your intentions for the day and meet them.
And then boom. You’re dealt a new hand and you’re not sure what to do next. Do you start slow? Reset your goals? Revaluate and check what you have to offer? Nope. Instead of over-thinking it you trust your gut and you go all in. The best part? When you follow that gut instinct beautiful things tend to happen.. And you end up leaving the table with more than you could have ever put in.
Life’s funny like that, isn’t it? Don’t be afraid to go all in my love, it’s worth the risk.
When I was 17 I saw Colbie Caillat in concert here in Salt Lake. That was an odd phase for me, and I stopped listening to her music shortly after. But tonight Kels told me to listen to her new song “Hold On”. And you know what? I plan on playing it loud n’ proud on my way to the gym. And work. And to school. And back home. Sometimes you just need a chick song to rock out to without feeling “dumb” about it. Girlfriend has stepped up her game since the whole “bubbly” situation.
The last few months of my life have been focused on preparing myself to return to school. Making the decision to start taking classes again was difficult for me, but I am so glad that I did. Taking some time off of school and allowing myself some time to truly discover what direction I want to go in has made a huge impact on me as a person.
I’ve finally learned that if we wait to start something when we are ready we may never begin.
I spent last night laughing so hard that I had tears coming out of my eyes with my best friend… and I really can’t think of a better way to say goodbye to my typical routine. Ryanne and Pat and I also watched our niners take the win today, that was a nice lil’ bonus to the weekend.
I’m curiously excited to see what this next chapter will bring. I never, ever imagined that this is what my life would be like at 22. Cheers to doing some soul-searching and becoming a stronger person because of it. Thank god I finally realized that I am too passionate to not put myself as a priority.
“Your job is to see people as they really are, and to do this, you have to know who you are in the most compassionate possible sense. Then you can recognize others.” -Anne Lamott
Do you understand? Read it twice. Love every inch of yourself. Embrace every good part and every bad part about you — do it without making up excuses. Be humble. Be gentle. And then it will all begin to make sense.