I Still Love You…

Maybe when you watched the game today, you thought of me. After all, you were the one who planted the seed of love for the 49ers into this beautiful garden I call life. I still wear this perfume you gave me, but only on days where my heart feels stable & the weather says there isn’t any precipitation in the forecast. Deep down, I wonder if you read my blog still. Part of me hopes that you’re hanging onto the only way you can be a part of my life right now. Being humans, we make mistakes. I guess you could say we have both been acting like humans without any filters. Forgiveness is something I strongly believe in but still struggle with every single day. I hope that we can look past the bitterness & stop being stubborn… I understand that I am not always right (even when I am wrong), so I promise not to point fingers. We both still have so much to learn. I do hope that eventually, we can do the learning together. Until then, know that I still love you, & I am still crossing my fingers you do too.

Just to clear things up… This post is not about some secret man or ex-boyfriend in my life, it is about my father. My boss likes to say, ‘Never assume, because you will make an ass out of you & me’. Sorry for the misunderstanding… Thank you.

Dads, Daughters, & Everything In Between

I’ve talked about my feelings regarding being raised by a single (and incredible) mother on here. I’ve also talked about what it was like not having a dad in the picture. Hopefully I have made it clear that I don’t have any hard feelings toward my situation or the outcome of those two things. I am blessed beyond belief, and believe it or not, feel like I have been given more then your average 20 year old when it comes to ‘fatherly advice & wisdom’. I have been lucky enough to have not just one main man in my life to love, support, and guide me towards a bright future, but many. That’s a whole other story that I would love to go into another day… But my point of all of this is I found this site that had a post abut ’50 Rules for Dads of Daughters’ and had to share. It’s on the blog, ‘From Dates To Diapers’ and in my opinion is pretty damn cute… Anyway, I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. To all those fabulous papa’s out there, thank you. And to all the men who may not be a dad but still share your wisdom with girls who may not have a father, thank you, you are brilliant.

XOXO, B