Maybe when you watched the game today, you thought of me. After all, you were the one who planted the seed of love for the 49ers into this beautiful garden I call life. I still wear this perfume you gave me, but only on days where my heart feels stable & the weather says there isn’t any precipitation in the forecast. Deep down, I wonder if you read my blog still. Part of me hopes that you’re hanging onto the only way you can be a part of my life right now. Being humans, we make mistakes. I guess you could say we have both been acting like humans without any filters. Forgiveness is something I strongly believe in but still struggle with every single day. I hope that we can look past the bitterness & stop being stubborn… I understand that I am not always right (even when I am wrong), so I promise not to point fingers. We both still have so much to learn. I do hope that eventually, we can do the learning together. Until then, know that I still love you, & I am still crossing my fingers you do too.
Just to clear things up… This post is not about some secret man or ex-boyfriend in my life, it is about my father. My boss likes to say, ‘Never assume, because you will make an ass out of you & me’. Sorry for the misunderstanding… Thank you.
I’ve talked about my feelings regarding being raised by a single (and incredible) mother on here. I’ve also talked about what it was like not having a dad in the picture. Hopefully I have made it clear that I don’t have any hard feelings toward my situation or the outcome of those two things. I am blessed beyond belief, and believe it or not, feel like I have been given more then your average 20 year old when it comes to ‘fatherly advice & wisdom’. I have been lucky enough to have not just one main man in my life to love, support, and guide me towards a bright future, but many. That’s a whole other story that I would love to go into another day… But my point of all of this is I found this site that had a post abut ’50 Rules for Dads of Daughters’ and had to share. It’s on the blog, ‘From Dates To Diapers’ and in my opinion is pretty damn cute… Anyway, I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. To all those fabulous papa’s out there, thank you. And to all the men who may not be a dad but still share your wisdom with girls who may not have a father, thank you, you are brilliant.