Confessions Of A Part Time Single Woman

It’s official, I’m homesick.

I thought that between school, work, and writing on my blog I wouldn’t get lonely… But I was wrong. Those things are not helping me avoid feeling lonely, they are overwhelming me and stressin’ a bitch out ok!

I was so excited to have our own place but Andy works all the time & it is so hard on me. We work opposite schedules & he comes home when I should be sleeping. Staying up late to spend 2 hours with him & having to wake up 4 hours later for work is a vicious cycle.

I love cooking big yummy dinners, watching football, and having a clean house – but not by myself all the time. What is the point of having everything you want when you don’t have anybody to really share it with? My family & friends are all in Salt Lake. They have been so supportive & have all spent hours on the phone with me, but it’s not the same. I miss my girls, my momma, my grandma, and my aunties. I wish I could have a day of hairapy with Kerry, a play date with Kelsey & Lincoln, and a wine & movie night with Lex. My license is being suspended for a 5 over ticket/too many points. That starts in 3 days & will be suspended for a month. Dear police officer, I don’t go anywhere but school & the grocery store please just leave me alone.

Today is Superbowl Sunday & I have spent it with family & friends since I was wee. But today is different. I slept in, woke up alone, and I am definitely still in my pajamas because I’ve been watching ‘Jerseylicious’ – What is my life coming to?! I feel ridiculous. I have wanted to see the movie ‘Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close’ so I looked up movie times to go see it today. Whoops, Logan doesn’t have it in theaters yet. Christ almighty I’m out of beer, good food, wine, garbage bags, and I am LONELY. This is not my cup of tea, and I have no idea what to do with myself. Feeling sorry for myself isn’t helping, I realize this, but jesus… I’m losing my sanity.

Oh and this dumb ass fish does nothing but shit in his tank and spazz out whenever I walk past his bowl. I AM NOT ENTERTAINED.

Pinterest, facebook, blogging, IG, tumblr, shoving candy in my mouth as fast as possible, playing dress up by myself like I’m 5, homework, and cleaning my house/fish bowl = Things that make me want to stick burning needles in my eyeballs because that’s all I do anymore.

So does anyone have any tips as to what I am supposed to do on days like this? I should be writing my interview questions because it is due tomorrow but I think I’ll just procrastinate like a normal college student.

Help a sista out here. Ps. I do not want to ‘go for a run’ – It smells like cow shit outside & I am bloated like a whale. I know, I just bitched for an entire blog post. No inspiration, no smiles, no jumping on the bed, nada. I am not handling this well. If you read this, well, bless your heart. Serious.

Love, the girl who has always said only boring people get bored.

Confidence For The Day

I have those days where I’d really rather not do anything with myself. Where I’d rather have wild hair, a naked face, chipped nails, & socks that don’t match. Those days where your eyes look like you just woke up even hours after you did. This is usually when I am stressed or overwhelmed.

Lately I read this quote when those kind of days sneak up on me –  I instantly turn to my closet for the comfiest yet most beautiful outfit I can manage. It’s always either black or white – Because right after I’m dressed, I coat my lips with my favorite red lipstick. It works like a charm, and it gives me the confidence I need to take control of my day. Try it, I promise it will work.

All my love, B

Pour yourself a drink, put on some lipstick, and pull yourself together.

Elizabeth Taylor

“Capturing the SOUL is my Ultimate Goal”

Good afternoon my loves. It’s a busy day today which is always a good thing. I want to share two photos of Alans that I think are quite beautiful. To view more of his work, go to his site here. He also has a facebook page, so go do your thing & ‘like’ his page. After all, supporting someones love & passion in life is always a good thing. I believe that in order to live a rich life, you must help others do the same.

Sending my love from afar… Ciao bellas.

Take A Step Into My Office

Today I woke up in an awesome mood & I was ready to work. It’s been really busy, so my day through Instagram is the best you’re going to get. I have some studying to do and I need to run some errands as well. I hope you’re all having a beautiful Tuesday! It’s gorgeous here in Logan, has been all week. If I had a dog, I’d walk it (or even a cat… ya I’m ‘that girl’, don’t judge me) Anyway, check out this song that I can’t stop playing. Dance around your house, jump on the bed, live a little. Everyone is always so serious. All my love until next time, xoxo Bee

A zen kind of morning

Told you it was a nightmare! But it’s my nightmare, and I love it:)

Base color: Caffeine Fix by Sephora

Tips: Traffic-Stopper Copper by Sephora

Top Coat by OPI

You know you have a nail polish problem when you touch up your nails and want a new look an hour later..

Lists run my world. This weeks is not messing around.

I decided we should have something other then tonys pizza & beer for dinner (classy, I know). Tonight I made baked chicken, garlic potatoes, corn, and steamed carrotsl. I always have way too much meat leftover at dinner, and Andy can never have enough. We balance each others plates out perfectly.

I worked, napped (I know, I’m spoiled), did laundry, cooked a delicious dinner, completed my first assignment for class tomorrow, and am now ending the day with my best friend and love of my life. Can I get a hell ya? Or a ‘thank you universe’ is suffice ♥

Tomorrow… First day of school, cause’ momma didn’t raise no fool. XOXO

Ps. My mom is funnier then your mom

Fresh Meat

I am currently working on my list of favorite blogs. Supporting other writers is something I love to do, so if anyone has a blog they’d like me to check out please let me know! There is always room in my life for a new great read. Thank you so much for those of you who have subscribed to Commander In Chic. There isn’t anything better then having people enjoy & appreciate your work, especially when you are passionate about sharing it. I have loved hearing from all of you, your comments are always amazing & help me learn more about you as individuals. Shine on my loves!  XOXO, B

Surreal

This is absolutely beautiful. These kind of things make me so happy. Can you even begin to imagine what his experiences are like with these gorgeous animals? I would love to be able to do this. Props to the sweet Summer who shared this on facebook – Thank you lovey!! XOXO