Reality Check & Staying Humble

I watched the bill on the register add up “$5…$10…$13…$18.59..” I politely stopped the woman at the cashier who I’ve known for years. I was at Reams, our neighborhood grocery store I went to with my mom growing up.

Can you please remove the most expensive items in order to drop the price to $17.00?” A year ago this would have made my heart stop & my eyes possibly well up with tears from embarrassment. There were at least 4 people in line behind me. Instead, I gave them a warm smile & apologized for the delay.

I’m two days from pay day & this is normal. I’ve planned for groceries & gas until then. I watch my budget carefully each month & I only purchase the things that I need. Let’s just say there aren’t any random shopping splurges or moments that lack gratitude in my life. At first this was an adjustment for me. But now I remember that living on my own is a luxury, and that this is my reality.

When I was younger I imagined that I would feel some sort of shame and embarrassment in this situation. Thankfully my life has dramatically changed and I have been exposed to the real world and the strict rules my independence casts. And I’m more than okay with it, because my struggles are blessings in others eyes.

As I grabbed my bags of groceries and walked out of the store I did not feel anything negative. In fact I felt proud that I had remembered my limit, made a plan, and stuck to it. The man directly behind me smiled and gave a little chuckle with a nod. It gave me comfort knowing that he understood. It was an overall humbling experience, and it certainly won’t be the last.

I live a very fortunate life. I have a job I love, a roof over my head, warm clothes, a meal on the table, clean water… a family that helps me when they can. I could go on. I swear my prayers turn into rambles because of this exact reason.. I am so thankful.

So many people live paycheck to paycheck (or on food stamps) with children, illnesses, and unstable living situations. And they accept that with grace. I look up to those who make it work, find creative ways to make do, and walk out of the store with their head held high knowing that it doesn’t reflect on them. It’s just life.

When I wake up in the morning and my eyeballs are swollen shut from sleeping so hard I just lay there and think “Wow, this is mine.” And that is what motivates me to work hard everyday and accept these reality checks when they happen (and they happen often) These are the things that keep me grounded.

I found a fantastic new food blog called Budget Bytes. I was so excited when I found it because each recipe is not only delicious but there is a price on all the items it calls for. Tonight I made Garlic Parmesan Kale angel hair pasta. It was guilt-free love, and is now a new favorite recipe of mine. Quick, easy, healthy, and inexpensive ($4, as a matter of fact)

Whether you’re on a tight budget or not I recommend visiting Budget Bytes. And don’t forget to welcome moments like this with love and strength, because we all need a reminder to stay humble :)

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A potion for Spring

I have really wanted to share this concoction that can make it feel a little more like Spring in your home with a few simple ingredients. Unfortunately, I was not able to find all of the ingredients at my local grocery store, so I will share in high hopes that you will be able to find what you’ll need.

(Thank you to “One more moore” where I found this lovely potion)

You need a small stockpot filled about 2/3 full with water. 1 lemon, sliced, and a few sprigs of rosemary. Then add 1-2 tsp of vanilla. Add water throughout the day as needed. You can keep the same mixture for around 2 days but after that you will need to throw it out.

Ooh the things I’d do for my own herb garden (or my mothers) — Let me know if any of you try it out. Cheers to Spring & the birth of new & beautiful things!

Niner Nation, Spaghetti, & A Recipe

This morning I woke up, opened my blinds & looked outside with my sloth eyeballs. The first thought that came to mind was, ‘I have to run today”. So, I did.

I also stopped and said hello to my favorite neighbors, Bessie and Esther. They are stinky bitches, eat grass, and let people squeeze their tits all day for milk. But I love them. There are 3 cows, 1 bunny, and tons of chickens. I was concerned that I would get chased off the property by the owner in his carhartt overalls with a shotgun, but it was worth the risk. Here are some photos I took while I coughed up a lung.

I came home, drank an ice cold glass of water, and made the most delicious shake ever. It had strawberries, blueberries, rasberries, 2 scoops of plain greek yogurt, flaxseed, almond milk, and orange juice. I got a little excited & made a mess…

After, I showered and went to the grocery store to get what I needed for a delicious homemade spaghetti dinner. Here is the recipe I am following. I prefer the Healthy Harvest pasta over regular pasta, because it is whole grain and I always support healthier options. Dinner turned out delicious, Andy and I are so happy with the way it turned out.

I made some garlic and brie to eat while I watched the game today. Even though my boys lost tonight, I still stand by them. Yes it was rough, and I did have some tears in my eyes when we lost in overtime. BUT, I’m a huge 49ers fan and so proud that we made it this far. Next year baby…

All in all I had a great Sunday. No words can describe the smile on my face when my man showed up 2 hours early from work. We watched the game together and he comforted me after the loss. These are the kind of Sundays I have dreamed of… I hope you had a great Sunday as well. Despite the fact that it’s the day before the most dreaded day of the week it’s still the best in my eyes. Loves, smooches, and football chest bumps until next time. XOXO, Bee

Mrs. Mustard

All day long I couldn’t stop looking at food. I can’t even count how many recipes I looked up & printed off. It started getting a little ridiculous, so as soon as I was off work I was at the grocery store. I made crusted honey mustard chicken & twice baked potatoes. Kelsey brought a salad, her fabulous self, & Lincoln. I’ve never really handled raw chicken. Whenever my mom would cook chicken I had to leave the room because I couldn’t handle all the fat & blood spots… But tonight I put my big girl panties on & did the damn thing. And it was absolutely delicious. Grandma, Kelsey, Lincoln, and I actually sat down and enjoyed a really nice dinner together. I’ve missed doing that with my family and friends, so I’m hoping to turn this into a weekly thing. I’m so blessed with have the chance to spend time with them. Anyway, my tummy is full & I can’t wait to crawl into my yummy bed and catch some shut eye. I love all of you, sweet sleeps! XOXO


Yesterday I worked, volunteered, took a bath, and fell asleep before the trick o’ treaters had the chance to call it good. I kept waking up thinking there was someone in my carport trying to break in because the sensor light kept going off. I always assume that it’s either a cat or someone is trying to kill me. I even woke up my grandma because I was so scared. But this time it turned out to be 5 year olds searching for some candy. Thank god.

I woke up to some very fitting weather for the first of November… The line was so long in the drive thru at Beans & Brew that I had to park & run inside. I definitely looked like this…

Needless to say, I didn’t run fast enough to avoid the rain. I really could have benefited from a numbrella, that’s for damn sure.

I was practically hanging out of the window in my office trying to get a picture of the snow this morning. Mind you, we are on the 11th floor, and I think my boss was a bit concerned when he walked by. But it’s not the first time, I tend to get bored and throw popcorn out the window on slow days. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Anyway, I hope all of you had a great Halloween and that you didn’t attempt to dress your children up like this…

Is it just me, or do you find this a bit frightening?? I also stumbled upon this and had to share… I apologize if I offend anybody but sometimes I just can’t keep things to myself.

I didn’t end up dressing up last night, but Friday evening Kelsey & I pulled a random outfit together for a get together with the girls. I’ve never been something that is actually ‘Scary’, I leaned towards outfits like Foxy Cleopatra & Ginger Spice in my younger years. I’m not quite ready to share pictures from that night… But here is one so you have an idea.

Yup, this is real life…. At our local grocery store.

I plan on curling up and watching Beatle Juice & maybe even some Hocus Pocus this evening. So I hope you kept all your pussys inside and stole lots of candy from your kids/siblings. Halloween at it’s finest, my loves.

Ps. Parcel & Sunnys outfits beat all ya’ll. Even Nicki & Weezy. Just sayin’….XOXO

Panties In A Bunch

Jon’s going to get these

And I’m going to get these

We’ll match and have the happiest feet EVER. I’ve wanted these for a while now but the huge amount of shit people have given me and the tiny amount of money I have both play a huge role in the deciding factor. But today I decided I don’t really give a shit if you’re not down with my FiveFingers. Meow thinks they are hideous and “will not be seen with me” but I think that can be changed. I love them and I can’t wait to do yoga and meditate in them. Jon and I walked to the grocery store yesterday quick like bunnies so I slipped on his Timbos… and surprise! I decided I need a pair of those as well. I’m thinking these are the ones I want.

Obviously we’re broke as a joke, I’m a college student and he’s a soon to be missionary. Therefore we’ll have to figure out a way to buy these, that’s something we’ll discuss another day. I’ll wear my Vibrams with my yoga attire/leggings/workout clothes & my timbos with everything. They looked cute with my velour VS outfit yesterday so that’s why I was sold on them in the first five. I have quite the obsession with Velour Outfits and have always been on the lookout for the perfect shoes to go with them, so I’m pretty excited.

Yesterday while we were walking home from the park we stumbled upon these…

Yup. Your eyeballs are correct. Those are a pair of friggity frackity PANTIES. At the PARK. I had no words, so I took a picture instead. I still don’t have much to say other then this, some people are FOUL. If you’re that careless with them why wear any at all? Sick shits….

Anywho, I’m off… My final is tomorrow and I have plenty to do with a small amount of ambition so it’s probably best if I start now. Or a week ago. Finals… My fave. Cheers! xoxo