Till’ It Feels Right

Hi babes! Happy Tuesday. This week has been beautiful so far. It’s been full of two of my favorite things — sunshine and love. If you don’t already know, I happen to work with one of my best friends, Ryanne (I know, I’m spoiled). So today I kidnapped her chiltlin while she was in a meeting. I love her kids, and so I always really look forward to taking over mommy-duties when she needs a break. I promise these brazilian hips were made to bounce/hold babies.

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I took her youngest, Lucy, who is 7 months old…(And to die for). I seriously want to smooch her cheeks off at all times. We went for a nice walk to the coffee shop, Luce drooled on me, laughed, and stared at strangers. And then we went to the indoor/outdoor mall, City Creek, and browsed. We had so much fun. I loved hearing her coo and jibber jabber in her stroller as we walked through downtown in the sun.

Oh, and I swear to you.. everyone is so much nicer to you when they think you’re a momma with a beautiful lil’ babe. It’s so interesting. Have you ever felt that way?

I am in absolutely no rush to have babies, and I realize it’s not as glamorous as wrangling someone else’s kids can be. I have an incredible, happy, healthy nephew who I love and adore. I also have cousins and Ryanne’s kids to live vicariously through. But, I do look forward to being a momma someday.. :)

I went back to work and then class afterwards and got some great news… I got an A on one of the most difficult papers I have ever had to write since being in college. This paper was on a pretty sensitive topic for me, so I was thrilled to see my grade and positive feedback from my professor.

We got out of class early, so I rushed home, put on my stretchy pants (sporty spice is in action as soooon as work is off) grabbed some vino, and headed to Ryanne and Pats for our weekly bachelor night. I planned on taking my agenda and scheduling homework/tests over the next month while I was there, but it felt good to celebrate my A and just leave all my responsibilities at home for a while.

Anyway, I hope you’re all having a great so far. I had a rough few days about a week or so ago, and it was because I was putting all of my time and energy towards the negative and stressful things in my life. Once I changed my perspective and attitude, things changed.

So if you feel overwhelmed, anxious, stressed, or uncomfortable in your day to day lifestyle try switching it up. Think about whether or not you’re putting more weight on one foot than the other. Find your balance, embrace the love in your life, and change your attitude to gratitude. Have a glass of wine, put some comfy pants on, and love the babies/kids/friends/family in your life. Smooch em’ till it feels right.

All my love…

Bee

Mindful Of Your Words

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Happy Thursday dolls. I’m really working on thinking before I speak. Which is kind of hard for me sometimes. We have to be so careful to taste our words before we spit them out. I learned that the hard way recently. So today when you feel like blurting something out try and be mindful of exactly what message you’re sending.

Before you speak, ask yourself: Is it kind, is it true, is it necessary, does it improve upon the silence?” -Shirdi Sai Baba

xoxo, Bee

Lightly, child.

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It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days, such a humorless little prig. Lightly, lightly – it’s the best advice ever given me…So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly my darling, on tiptoes and no luggage, not even a sponge bag, completely unencumbered. -Aldous Huxley, Island  

“After spending time with a girl, you feel exhausted because she takes more than she gives. After spending time with a woman, you feel invigorated, because she empowers you with possibility, and a passion for life.” -Nadia Mah

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“Read that book, wake up early in the morning and go for that run to start off your day. Buy the nicest underwear and wear it to boost your mood. Eat as clean as possible because you’ll feel so much better but treat yourself as well. Be kind to everyone. Go out to a cafe and watch people walk buy as you sip your coffee. Compliment that stranger! Start a conversation with that person on the bus. Read a book about food, about astronomy, learn a new language. Watch the sunrise. Get away for a weekend. Introduce yourself. Do yoga and go on a hike. Lay on the beach under the stars and have a dnm with your best friend. Dance around and sing at the top of yours lungs at that festival. Life is meant to be lived, not controlled.” -Unknown

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What Makes Me Go

Every morning at 5 a.m Beyonce serenades and motivates my ass via my alarm clock while I fumble around and put my gym clothes on like a little zombie. Then I get into my car and drive to the gym within 5 minutes (I know, it’s so close, I’m spoiled).

Sometimes I meet my best friend Kelsey, and sometimes I go alone. But I always commit 2 hours at the beginning of the day to myself. It’s my me time where I work through all the things going on in my head. It’s the green light to my day, the thing that makes me go.

For some women it’s shopping, spa days, champagne and high heels. For me it’s my Nike’s, headphones, Nalgene filled with ice cold water, and an ass kicking. I love and enjoy the alternative, but the gym fuels me unlike any gorgeous new handbag. When I exercise I’m investing in myself. My happiness, health, and well-being are invaluable to me.

But this morning when I peeled my eyeballs open (yah, it’s rough sometimes) I realized that I needed something different for the day. So instead of rushing to the gym and breaking a sweat I chose to make myself some tea, sit down on my meditation pillow, and be still. I chose an exercise for my mind.

And it was beautiful. I focused on my breath. I woke up slowly. I was mindful of my thoughts. And the most important thing was that I was gentle with myself.

Next week I have my first big test at school, and I’m dedicating this weekend to studying. I’m sure there will be moments of frustration where I am tired and would rather stick burning needles in my eyeballs than work on my review…. But I feel like meditating this morning really prepared me for the next week.

I’m learning that we need a variety of things in our lives to remain aware. Things that challenge us, educate us, motivate us, and comfort us. But for me the biggest thing is finding the moments, people, and activities that quiet my thoughts. Meditating does that for me. Looking at someone I love does that for me. Sharing my thoughts by writing on this blog and hearing feedback from like-minded individuals does that for me.

I didn’t need squats, dumbells, and burpees today. I needed to keep my heart open, my thoughts pure, and my energy centered while I remained present. Sometimes in life the quieter we become, the more we can hear. 

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Currently Craving

I’m craving cool nights next to the campfire.Tinfoil dinners and whiskey on the rocks. Black coffee that is rich and hot. Early morning hikes into the unknown as the sun creeps up and starts the day. Nothing but blues and raspy folk music alongside mother natures song.

My mom took me camping when I was 6 months old, and I’ve had a deep love for it ever since. I like the fact that when you’re camping you lose track of time and simply listen to your bodies clock. I like waking up and putting a hoodie on over top of some long johns and my favorite warm socks. I love letting my messy hair and bare skin soak up the fresh air. Naps and snacks and telling stories you typically would keep to yourself while in the city.

I love the challenges that sometimes come up. When you have to make do because you forgot to pack something, or it suddenly starts pouring rain and you weren’t prepared to be protected from the hot and heavy showers. So you laugh and do what you can, but sometimes all that consists of is dancing in the rain until it stops.

Life is sweet when it’s spent outdoors with people you love, disconnected from the buzz of your hometown and to-do lists.

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“Now I see the secret of making the best person: it is to grow in the open air and to eat and sleep with the earth.” ― Walt Whitman