All In

It’s so funny how there are times when you think you have your life situation all figured out. You walk around in your underwear and a big ole hoodie while you dance in the living room to prepare for the day (oh, you don’t do that? you should..) You crave the little rush of confidence you get when you approach a challenge and you’re able to say to yourself “I’ve got this shit.” You wake up, you know you’ve got a plan, and you run through it like you’ve practiced it a million times. Flawless. You go to bed, dream big, wake up with a purpose and do it even better than the day before. It’s rare, but it’s so amazing when you set your intentions for the day and meet them. 

And then boom. You’re dealt a new hand and you’re not sure what to do next. Do you start slow? Reset your goals? Revaluate and check what you have to offer? Nope. Instead of over-thinking it you trust your gut and you go all in. The best part? When you follow that gut instinct beautiful things tend to happen..  And you end up leaving the table with more than you could have ever put in.

Life’s funny like that, isn’t it? Don’t be afraid to go all in my love, it’s worth the risk.
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She Tastes Like..

“She tastes like nectar and salt. Nectar and salt and apples. Pollen and stars and hinges. She tastes like fairy tales. Swan maiden at midnight. Cream on the tip of a fox’s tongue. She tastes like hope.” -Laini Taylor, Daughter of Smoke and Bone

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Seeing My Potential

The last few months of my life have been focused on preparing myself to return to school. Making the decision to start taking classes again was difficult for me, but I am so glad that I did. Taking some time off of school and allowing myself some time to truly discover what direction I want to go in has made a huge impact on me as a person.

I’ve finally learned that if we wait to start something when we are ready we may never begin.

I spent last night laughing so hard that I had tears coming out of my eyes with my best friend… and I really can’t think of a better way to say goodbye to my typical routine. Ryanne and Pat and I also watched our niners take the win today, that was a nice lil’ bonus to the weekend.

I’m curiously excited to see what this next chapter will bring. I never, ever imagined that this is what my life would be like at 22. Cheers to doing some soul-searching and becoming a stronger person because of it. Thank god I finally realized that I am too passionate to not put myself as a priority.

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All my love,

Bailey Mikell

Dustin’ That Ass Off

When I’m feeling bad about anything in my life I use it as motivation. I use my emotions to push me towards the things I need to do in order to succeed. There will always be experiences, people, and tragedies that will occasionally knock you down no matter what you do to prepare. But there has not been one single instance in my life where I have been knocked down and just laid there. I take a moment to breathe and then I get my ass up, dust myself off and I make a plan.

I’m a firm believer in using the bricks life throws at you and building yourself up to be even stronger. “Don’t be pushed by your problems, be led by your dreams.” -Ralph Waldo Emmerson

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If you’re sad, be sad. If you’re hurt, then be hurt. Allow yourself to go through those feelings and witness your fear. But give yourself a deadline to feel that way, because there is only so much one can do when they’re feeling bad for themselves. I like to cry it out, take a hot lavender bath, make myself an amazing meal, and get a full 9 hours of sleep if possible (I realize that’s not always an option for some people..) and then I wake up the next morning and give all my anger, sadness, confusion, and pain up at the gym. It works every time. I leave the gym feeling like a new woman.

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But the biggest thing I’ve learned from the recent let-downs in my life is this: you have to make an effort to be strong, you have to fight back against negativity and self-doubt every day, and you have to disregard anyone’s desire to blow out that flame that you work so hard to ignite within. And the most important thing is that you do all of that with love and grace. Because anybody can be a fighter, but not everyone can go about it in a gentle and loving way.

Getting Rid of Toxic People

“You don’t ever have to feel guilty about removing toxic people from your life. It doesn’t matter whether someone is a relative, romantic interest, employer, childhood friend, or a new acquaintance — you don’t have to make room for people who cause you pain or make you feel small. It’s one thing if a person owns up to their behavior and makes an effort to change. But if a person disregards your feelings, ignores your boundaries, and continues to treat you in a harmful way, they need to go.” -Danielle Koepke

 

 

It’s How You See Yourself

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“Your job is to see people as they really are, and to do this, you have to know who you are in the most compassionate possible sense. Then you can recognize others.” -Anne Lamott

Do you understand? Read it twice. Love every inch of yourself. Embrace every good part and every bad part about you — do it without making up excuses. Be humble. Be gentle. And then it will all begin to make sense. 

XOXO, Bailey Mikell