Running towards the unknown

  • Finals
  • Work
  • Worries
  • Money/bills
  • Insecurities
  • Self doubt

My doctor told me to squeeze a quick workout in when I need more energy after a day at work (ya, so not what I was wanting to hear) Did I listen? Yes. Did I do it? No. Today is a day for things I’ve never done, so I stopped the cycle of one bad habit: laziness. I have three articles due tomorrow & I need authentic energy right now. Instead of going for coffee, I ran.

Often when we go towards the unknown we are surprised with what we find — that was the case in this situation. I ran a new route and discovered my own personal haven. The road was freshly paved & barely big enough for one vehicle. To my left there was a field of freedom: calfs snuggled with their mommas while some just stood & looked at me curiously. To be honest, I would too if I saw a girl running her heart out while oozing with joy (it’s not sweat, it’s bliss – stinky bliss) & taking 849 photos. To my right there was an open field with the mountains behind it — it was the perfect mixture of natures finest.
I realize it’s hard to do some of the things doctors recommend — I’m a firm believer that although they are extremely educated & specialize in caring for our well-being, we know our bodies best. Just because you might not agree with “their way” doesn’t mean you can’t find another way. Take care of yourself by listening, and watching, your body. There are countless ways to be healthy that do not include weight lifting & marathons. Find what works for you & do it. When I’d rather not, I remind myself: our bodies keep track of everything we do, even when we do not.

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Enjoying the Tangible

[ now playing ‘momma’s music’ ]

Its pouring outside today & I can’t quite find the sun’s hiding spot in the sky. That’s okay, because I’ve decided to stop looking for what’s missing & begin enjoying the tangible. I love the rain because it forces me to seek the sunshine in my life. Cheers to you being one of the many beautiful rays that shine light in this life of mine! Wahoo! Thank you for being here. (if you care, I cheers’d with my cup of joe;)

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Last night I went to sleep next to my love in our brand new bed (my sweet Andy truly spoils me) and I woke up to the best news ever! After 14 weeks of pushing myself harder than I ever have at school I finally have results: I received my first A on an article!!! Many may laugh at this because A’s might be your average — but an ‘A’ to me means I’m finally getting it. I am LEARNING! My professor doesn’t give A’s often, so I am absolutely ecstatic. This is what I woke up to at 5:45 a.m.  “Wake up! Smell the coffee! Enjoy the ‘A’ you got on your week 12 paper!!!!”

Last night I told Kelsey how frustrated I was with myself and my performance at school — I’d be lying if I said giving up never crossed my mind. This ‘A’ has given me the confidence to fight through the last part of finals, or as Professor LaPlante calls it, ‘The Crucible’.

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Anyway, I just realized I need to stop blogging about it & be about it – I’ve got class in an hour!

To read my ‘A’ article go here 

All my love, Bee

In My Hands

After the wind howled all day & night yesterday it finally began to rain —  it was a relief hearing heavy drops patter against my windows instead of the wind shaking them. I’m not a huge fan of the wind when I’m alone.

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It’s quiet in our house today but I still can’t stop playing this (click text). Roman has a new favorite thing: mauling my head/attempting to eat my hair. I just don’t really care enough today to make him stop. All I ask is that my eyeballs stay intact.

When I saw this little piece of heaven on Pinterest something wonderful happened: My Boxcar Children days flashed right before my eyes. They were my favorite books when I was wee and I always dreamed of being a ‘boxcar-child’. The thought of living off of berries, cream, and stale bread from the local bakery was just perfect to me. It’s amazing how our idea of “perfect” changes as we grow. I’ve always had a special place for exploring, especially in the mountains (The Hatchet was also a favorite of mine)

Who wants to meet me there?

I hope you’re having a delicious Sunday & enjoying the first day of April. There’s just something about a new month that makes me feel like I’ve got the whole world in my hands. I hope you feel the same way, it’s pretty empowering.

All my love, Bee

Ps. We didn’t win the lottery. What the hell dude I thought the chances were good?..

Never felt so beautiful

After the sun discontinued it’s lovely light supply through our windows I decided to take a step outside. I stood on my porch barefoot with a naked face & a baggy t-shirt on. At that moment I realized I couldn’t recall the last time I felt so beautiful; Yet I had nothing to do with the beauty I was experiencing. Logan sunsets will do that to you.

What’s yours?

Hi, my name’s Bailey, I like to tell stories. What’s yours? I’m ready to refresh my blog roll  — comment with a link to your blog or your favorite blog (or whatever the hell you want, really) so I can pop over & enjoy the things you create. You know I’m not picky.

Ready, set… GO!

1. Pink Pashmina scarf – Gift from Auntie

2. Glasses – Urban Blues in SLC

3. Creme & black striped sweater – TjMaxx

4. Leggings – Victorias Secret

5.Yellow off the shoulder yoga shirt – Victorias Secret 2010 line 

6. Harness 15r Frye Boots 

She Fought with Fervor and Great Love

Being raised by a single mother helped me build a strong connection with women who refuse to sit back & be quiet while others make decisions for them. At a young age I was taught how rewarding it is to be independent & work hard for the life that you want to live. My mother also surrounded me with women who celebrate themselves & those they love — women who fight for what they believe in & aren’t willing to settle.

I am not here to say that what I believe is right & what you believe is wrong — I am here to say that each individual has the power of choice & the freedom to express themselves. This world is beginning to hush what needs to be heard & hide what we have the right to see. I believe that if each of us makes the commitment to stand tall when we discuss our passions, speak steady when we express our concerns & be strong when people claim that our voices are weak we can show just how far  one dream can take us.

This is the kind of woman I aspire to be & can become. And I love that. My country may not be perfect but I am thankful that it allows me to attack even the smallest challenges with fervor & great love. I hope you do the same.

I am here for a reason & I won’t wait around for someone to tell me what it is. I shall strive to make a difference in just one persons life, an unforgettable one.

“European Member of Parliament, Licia Ronzulli (an MEP from Italy), took her seven-week old daughter, Victoria, to work at the European Parliament in Strasbourg. [It was not a ‘Take-Your-Child-to-Work’ event.] She kept her baby carefully cradled against her in a wrap and occasionally leant to kiss her on the forehead. This photo was taken as she voted on proposals to improve women’s employment rights and was broadcast and published in newspapers around the world.”

Thank you for being brave Licia Ronzulli.

“I love to see a young girl go out & grab the world by the lapels. Life’s a bitch. You’ve got to go out and kick ass.” -Maya Angelou

Comforting Blends

Learning how to “fight right” never comes easy at first… & although there is always room for things to be worse, I have to say being humiliated by someone you love is a gut wrenching feeling.

It’s just me, a cup of tea, & Roman tonight… The best comfort when it’s 3 A.M and your mum & sissy are 90 miles away.

Thankful I’m not alone because I am slowly but surely learning that (as much as I hate to admit) it scares me to death.

xoxo, R&B