What Makes Me Go

Every morning at 5 a.m Beyonce serenades and motivates my ass via my alarm clock while I fumble around and put my gym clothes on like a little zombie. Then I get into my car and drive to the gym within 5 minutes (I know, it’s so close, I’m spoiled).

Sometimes I meet my best friend Kelsey, and sometimes I go alone. But I always commit 2 hours at the beginning of the day to myself. It’s my me time where I work through all the things going on in my head. It’s the green light to my day, the thing that makes me go.

For some women it’s shopping, spa days, champagne and high heels. For me it’s my Nike’s, headphones, Nalgene filled with ice cold water, and an ass kicking. I love and enjoy the alternative, but the gym fuels me unlike any gorgeous new handbag. When I exercise I’m investing in myself. My happiness, health, and well-being are invaluable to me.

But this morning when I peeled my eyeballs open (yah, it’s rough sometimes) I realized that I needed something different for the day. So instead of rushing to the gym and breaking a sweat I chose to make myself some tea, sit down on my meditation pillow, and be still. I chose an exercise for my mind.

And it was beautiful. I focused on my breath. I woke up slowly. I was mindful of my thoughts. And the most important thing was that I was gentle with myself.

Next week I have my first big test at school, and I’m dedicating this weekend to studying. I’m sure there will be moments of frustration where I am tired and would rather stick burning needles in my eyeballs than work on my review…. But I feel like meditating this morning really prepared me for the next week.

I’m learning that we need a variety of things in our lives to remain aware. Things that challenge us, educate us, motivate us, and comfort us. But for me the biggest thing is finding the moments, people, and activities that quiet my thoughts. Meditating does that for me. Looking at someone I love does that for me. Sharing my thoughts by writing on this blog and hearing feedback from like-minded individuals does that for me.

I didn’t need squats, dumbells, and burpees today. I needed to keep my heart open, my thoughts pure, and my energy centered while I remained present. Sometimes in life the quieter we become, the more we can hear. 

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Alone But Not Lonely

I remember being about 13 years old and going through pre-teen “funks”. I was (and still can be) a moody little shit. But I always knew what the solution was. I’d hurry home, play soccer until the sun went down, and then “redecorate” my bedroom. I would put in my favorite CD and go to town. Getting rid of things that no longer served a purpose and reflecting on the things that did (I was a weird kid). I’d always make my mom stay upstairs until I was done (which I’m sure she was thrilled about) and then reveal my “new and improved space” when I finished. I knew at a young age how much of an impact my personal space had on my mood.

With that little hobby came big dreams of having my own apartment. I imagined that it would have beautiful art, shelves full of books of poetry, romance, sorrow, and adventure…candles, music, plenty of plants, and soft pillows and large blankets. A place to relax and write, entertain the people I love, make memories, and dream . And I am incredibly blessed to say that my little shoe-box apartment is beginning to fit that description.

It’s been such a fun and rewarding process for me to make that dream into a reality. But like all good things it has taken time. I have added each piece that is in my home slowly, making sure that each object resonates with me some way or another.

A few months ago my aunt Carolyn told me that she wanted to buy me a piece of art for my home. I was so excited. But I’d been looking for a while and just couldn’t find anything that made me feel like I had to have it. Last weekend while my mom and aunt were out shopping they came across a piece at my favorite store, Dancing Cranes. They sent me a photo of it but I just wasn’t in the mindset at the time to make a decision about whether or not I wanted it.

For the past week I’ve been on my way home and thought about that piece as I drove past DC. Today all three of us went back to Dancing Cranes and it was still there. I guess that is how I knew that it was meant to be mine. I came home, hammered a nail into my paper-thin wall, and just stared at it. It’s perfect where it is.

The piece is called “You Found Me, Alone But Not Lonely.” It’s such an accurate symbol of where I am at in my life right now. The photo was taken in Bear Rive Migratory Bird Refuge.

You Found Me, Alone But Not Lonely.

I just finished reading Gabrielle Bernstein’s book “Spirit Junkie: A Radical Road to Self-Love and Miracles.” and it is now a new favorite of mine. So I decided to buy myself a new book to keep my reading flow going as well as a meditation pillow. I have been using a pillow from my bed or I’ve just sat on the floor while meditating, so I’m eager to have a comfortable place to gather my thoughts, pray, and meditate everyday.

The book I purchased is called “I Am Malala: The Girl Who Stood Up For Education and Was Shot By The Taliban.”

I truly believe that Malala is our youngest and most powerful female voice right now and that she will continue to do incredible things throughout her life. Her book has truly moved me. I’ve made a promise to myself to only read it when I have time to really allow her words to sink in and sit with me. I start school next month and her story has changed my prospective on getting my education as a female. I strongly encourage you to purchase it for yourself and/or someone you love.

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I hope that you have had a weekend full of the things that bring you inner peace and joy. It can be hard to find time for ourselves during the holidays, and some people look down on it. But I find it absolutely essential to find a balance between giving love to others and giving love to yourself in order to be happy and healthy.

All my love, Bailey Mikell 

 

My Vision

17 weeks ago I started my vision board. But at the time I couldn’t quite fill an entire white poster board with my dreams because I did not know what exactly I wanted. So I chose to wait until I felt passionate enough to continue. 

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And then suddenly my life took quite a few unexpected turns. Some beautiful, some ugly, but all together they are mine. The recent change of pace has motivated me to continue creating, dreaming, and striving to live my very best life. Within some of my personal struggles I have found a great fighter inside of me. I want to wake up and be proud to take responsibility for the life I live and the things I do. At the end of the day it’s simple: we must be able to go to sleep and be happy with the decisions we make and the person we become.

(and yes I’m aware of my plants slightly brown ends…oops)

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So after a long week at work I came home, took my makeup off, and pulled out my vision board that was partially done. I played my favorite Pandora station and poured myself a glass of wine. And as I scanned through each Oprah, Self, and Womens Health magazine I own I pulled bits and pieces of inspiration that made me take a second look — and this is what I came up with.

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Working on my vision board helped me feel more clear about what I need to do to become the woman I know I can be. It also showed me that Elmers Spray Adhesive belongs in every creative persons home and that my creative go-go juice is (and may always be) Blackbox at its finest.Image

By the way, I easily made 10 paper balls or more out of magazine scraps to keep this stinker occupied until he called it a night.. Image

Last night I realized that there are a lot of things I must do for myself in order to reach my goals but I’m willing and ready to do what it takes.

A few things I will be working on for the rest of 2013 are:

  • Getting outside and just doing it whether it’s a hike, run, or late night walk.
  • Saying yes to every opportunity life gives me
  • Living an all around healthier lifestyle (clean eating, exercise, meditation, and plenty of yoga)
  • Allowing myself to rest when I am over-worked. I have to remember that my tasks will be there when I wake up… checking work emails in bed at midnight is not necessary.
  • Self-love! No more putting my personal needs on the back burner. Learning to treat myself not cheat myself.
  • Don’t settle.
  • Educate myself through the people I surround myself with, the books I read, the songs I hear, the places I go and the meals I eat.
  • Travel. Anywhere and everywhere
  • Express gratitude daily. I want to give back to those who have helped me during my journey.

I also need to remember to be gentle with myself during the process and remember that it’s about the journey, not the destination. So I did my best to get my fingers to stop sticking together so that I could have two girl scout cookies for a midnight snack and then I went to sleep. I would call that a pretty successful night.

I’d like to end on this quote and hopefully it will help get my message across…

“Develop into a lifelong self-learner through voracious reading; cultivate curiosity and strive to become a little wiser every day.” -Charlie Munger

All my love, Bailey Mikell

Sweeter Than Others

Dear January 14th…. we are in a fight.

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BUT, lets celebrate the beauty of today instead of highlighting the negative. I decided to take my frustration out in the kitchen and bake the cutest little banana bran muffins you’ve ever seen.

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And of course I spilled granola all over my kitchen floor during the process. But don’t worry, Roman was there to provide me with some assistance..

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AAAAND…. Lincoln turned 2 at the end of December & I couldn’t be more proud of the sweet boy that he is. I do believe being an auntie is one of the biggest blessings in the world. We played with his new toys, ate cupcakes, and smooched goodnight. I love him very much.

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It’s colder than a witches tit in the ‘tah. I’ve come to the conclusion that copious amounts of tea, bloody mary’s (which I’ve mastered), beer, and football are the only solution to the temperature being in single digits. Keep calm & drink/cheer the 49ers on.

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“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.”  Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
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Winter is always the hardest season for me, so meditation, yoga & daily affirmations are key to staying centered & balanced. The problem is I close my eyes for 10 minutes & when I open them this is my first thought….
what the fuck was I thinking about?
Oops. Some seasons are simply sweeter than others. Speaking of sweet, I decided to stop being an asshole & start dating again (& I may or may not have a crush…) What has January been treating you with? I miss all of you. Reach out to me so that we can reconnect, I’d love to hear what’s going on in your world.
All my love until next time, Bailey Mikell

Creating Space

Taking some time to make a space for my breath. It’s been too long since I’ve taken my daily dose of meditation & sunshine — it will clear this mind of mine in no time.

All my love until next time, Bee

If It Were A Book

I’ve been trying to accept that good things happen to bad people..

I ordered a book my friend Jani recommended called  “Women Who Think Too Much”. I spend a large amount of my time doing that & I’m ready to make a change for the better. Women tend to overanalyze things & it’s not healthy. It will be my new bath time read. Thank you Jani.

Hell week (or hell weeks) is among us and it’s everything you’d imagine it to be. An article is due every day for 11 days. We typically have 1 article per week so it’s a lot more work then we’re used to.

I’ll be in SLC for CJ’s funeral this weekend, back home for a day, then back to SLC for an all day work summit next week. Not much I can do other then get plenty of rest & prepare myself mentally. Anyway, if you have the time I want you to ask yourself this question today: if your life was a book and you were the author how would you want your story to go? Watch this video & get inspired to make it an incredible story.

 I hope you all have a great Thursday. All my love, xoxo

’18 Things I Wish Someone Told Me When I Was 18′ #2

There are many times throughout the day where I catch myself forgetting to take deep breathes. This is because I get so caught up in what I am doing that I breathe less and work more. I know it sounds a little off, but it’s true. When was the last time you stood up straight, slowed down, and took a nice deep breathe? It’s so important to take time in your daily life to step back and look at your surroundings to appreciate them. To embrace the fact that you are here, right now, living a beautiful life with endless opportunities.Filling our brain with ‘To Do’s and worries can become such a habit, but we must remember to clear our thoughts and relax. The world moves so fast, we as humans tend to live at a pace that isn’t healthy. It always helps me to go to a place where I can’t be disrupted and to write my thoughts in a journal. When I look back on entries I wrote I am able to see where my mind was at that time and it helps me improve my person well-being for the future. Meditation has been proven to increase the production of serotonin levels (which influences and mood and behavior). Note that low levels of serotonin have been associated with depression, obesity, insomnia and headaches. So when you’re in need of a refreshing moment, walk away from what you’re doing, and spend some time with yourself. You’ll be amazed at the difference it will make in your life… Namaste loves.

“Sit alone in silence for at least ten minutes every day. – Use this time to think, plan, reflect, and dream.  Creative and productive thinking flourish in solitude and silence.  With quiet, you can hear your thoughts, you can reach deep within yourself, and you can focus on mapping out the next logical, productive step in your life.”