Pull up your pants boys, you’re far from being gentlemen. Nuff’ said.
I started my first blog in 2009 because I was a teenager who was about to burst with passion. I wanted a place where my words couldn’t ever be twisted, a place to call my own (rent free with my mommas cooking). My dying desire to create erased all fear of any ridicule or judgements that are often found during our teens. On January 26, 2011 I decided to stop drifting and begin a lifelong commitment to reality & making my dreams come true. I was ready for a new chapter.
After letting letting negativity consume me I was ready to take my inner strength back from unworthy experiences — & that was exactly what I did. I ran & lifted my way to the body I had prior to the depression, anxiety, injuries and insecurities. My self confidence improved but the real miracle was in my mind. My focus shifted from “woe is me” to “why not me?”. I changed my environment & surrounded myself with people who lifted me up versus knocking me down. I went to therapy multiple times a week & began creating (and rebuilding) healthy relationships. I had finally found my authentic self.
“When you are joyful, when you say yes to life and have fun and project positivity all around you, you become a sun in the center of every constellation, and people want to be near you.” -War & Peace
On March 20, 2011 I started this blog. I did not have a vision about what I wanted it to be, I just knew that I needed to write. I needed to say goodbye to the young girl that wanted to be heard and hello to the woman who was dying to listen & committed to inspiring. What once was a creative outlet is now a way to tell my story while inspiring you to not wait another second to begin yours. I hope you begin now & never look back. Like Jonathan Winters said, “If your ship doesn’t come in, swim out to it.” Don’t wait to hit rock bottom to create yourself… life is an incredible thing to miss out on.
All my love, Bee
(click the image to be taken to Enlighten Education, a program that helps teenage girls decode the mixed messages they receive and help them develop self-esteem and confidence)
In the last few weeks I have really lost sight of my priorities. The results are disappointing but tonight I realized the reason my results aren’t where I want them to be is because I’m cooking with a recipe for failure. The solution is simple, I need to change my ingredients. I wrote down my priorities (my well-being, the relationships in my life, career, education etc.) and then I wrote a list of improvements for each one. Doing this felt so good & helped me map out my plan to free myself from any self doubt &/or limits. Often I find myself slipping so fast that I don’t see the point in reaching for something to hang onto. The thing that is so important to remember is that it is never too late to re-evaluate your priorities & see if your lifestyle coincides with them. If what you’ve been doing isn’t working anymore, it’s okay. Things get used up & worn out but we can always start fresh. And that, in my opinion, is the beauty in having the option to turn your life around on any road.
I just got off work & now I am ready to clean, clean, clean! Except my nostrils feel like someone shoved cotton up both of them while I was sleeping last night, there is possibly a little person in my head kicking my brain, & me eyeballs feel partially shriveled. Ooh yes, the glorious signs of a cold. But I refuse to get sick. I don’t have time to be sick right now. I’m going to make some tea, double up on vitamins, and have a hot bath before I put an end to this nerd/laundry/dishes MADNESS. Here are some natural cold remedies that look pretty interesting. Much better then chugging a bottle of nyquil…. usually.
I love you little bugs, have a happy non-congested day! XOXO
One of our favorite things to do is talk about all the places we want to go together. When I saw photos of the Amangiri Resort I did some research, and to my surprise it’s in Canyon Point, Utah. Canyon Point is only about an eight hour drive from us, so this will have to be something we can add to our wish list. Utah is incredible. We get the best of both worlds & I am so grateful that we live in such a beautiful place. For a video tour of the resort go here
What are some of your favorite luxury get-aways that you’re planning or have already gone on?
“Life is here and it is now… Either we meet it, we live it or we miss it. All life resides in the narrow margin and the board espanse of the moment. It is in the doing, the dreaming, and feeling, and the caring. It is always present in a glorious attempt, a lofty dream, a brilliant insight, an irreplaceable experience, a calming breath, an unbelievable feeling and an irreplaceable passion.”
I just learned the massive difference between asking for help and needing help. There shouldn’t be any shame in either situation. If you ask for help you are taking the first step to creating a solution. If you need help you are a bit closer to getting it once you acknowledge there is in fact a problem.
I am capable. I am willing. I can do this.
And you can, too.
“A smooth sea never made a skillful sailor.”