Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old.
- Self doubt
My doctor told me to squeeze a quick workout in when I need more energy after a day at work (ya, so not what I was wanting to hear) Did I listen? Yes. Did I do it? No. Today is a day for things I’ve never done, so I stopped the cycle of one bad habit: laziness. I have three articles due tomorrow & I need authentic energy right now. Instead of going for coffee, I ran.
Andy and I are so excited about our new tree!!…
But Roman obviously loves it more than both of us. He’s kind of out of control sometimes, which is normal for kittens.. but he has knocked down this poor tree at LEAST 5 times since we got it, ummm, an hour ago. I’m sure it’s going to live a long, good life in our house…
I love our crazy little Roman, and I love that we are making our townhouse into a home. Even if it is with weird palm-tree like things that I have no idea how to keep alive.
Leslie took these pictures of Roman when we had the family over for dinner on Thursday. She’s so talented, I love her photos.
Today Roman & I started the day reading the Washington Post in bed with tea and lots of snuggles. Now it’s all about 90’s music, waffles at 2:30 in the afternoon and SUNSHINE!! I’ve got a big ass grin & a tank top on. Happy Sunday, everyone.Cheers to Spring being the best tease & not having one complaint about it.
Whiskers, kisses & love,
After sharing the rant from hell I knew I just might regret, I read your comments & learned to breathe again. With the love & support of all of you I got through the hardest day Logan has thrown at me thus far. Those deep breathes resulted in this recent discovery: We can either break down or break through, and like one of my amazing readers said, we always, always have a choice. One of my readers whom I adore also commented on that post & gave me some food for thought…
“Sometimes I sit and watch the emotion unfold like I used to watch clouds form and unform until they passed from my living room window,” he said. “Doing that reduces the potency of the feeling but also helps clear your head and provide you sometimes with great insights. It seems at first a very zen thing or stoic but it will relax you and help. – just my two cents” Well, your two cents prevented this lil’ lady from losin’ my mind up in here. (Click the link, it will make more sense) Thank you Mr. Marymuthafuckingpoppins :)
Shortly after I spent some time unfolding, Leslie (Andys sister) invited me over to watch the Superbowl with their family. Such little things seem to get by without recognition, so I want to say thank you. I adore the Lundbergs & cherish the time I get to spend with them. Being with them brings me comfort that feels familiar to the kind I find with my own family, which is something my heart has been absolutely yearning for.
The lesson I learned in this mini-meltdown of mine is this: The on-going battle with my emotions was the root to a weed that can spread like a wild fire. But who am I to choose what is a flower & what may be a weed? Despite the flaws in my situation I believe the beauty takes the gold. I did not see this at first, of course, but because of my readers, the Lundbergs and my loved ones I opened my eyes to what I have, not what I need.
It has been a little over a month since I loaded my car & made the trip that I had been waiting for for years. The transition scared the shit out of me… but I knew that I was on my way to a new home where I would grow & expand my ability to cope as a young woman in an old & very fast world. Consider this a big fat smooch & long hug from me. Some say strangers cannot make a difference, but I feel we have a connection, and all of you have indeed made a difference in my life… an unforgettable one.
Photos Via Pinterest
All of my love, B.
I forgot to take a deep breathe….
This sweet girl reminded me – Thank you.