My Intention for 2014

Usually I take some time to write a post about my year. Obviously everyone needs to know how I felt about it, right? ;) But this year it feels best to keep it short & sweet — 2013 was many things.. and a year I will never forget. I feel gratitude for the people, experiences, and challenges it brought into my life. But I have shared my thoughts on many things over the last year on this blog & I feel as though it’s time to truly put the good, and the bad, in the past.

With that said, I woke up this morning eager to start the first day of the year. When I first thought about making New Years resolutions I did what I do and got busy over-thinking (naturally) Here’s my first list aka clusterfuck: Get a 4.0 during Spring semester, finish my first half marathon with a great time (or just finish, that’s cool too), improve my performance at work, make my apartment more Pinterest-y, or beat last years time when I compete in the Spartan this June for the 2nd year. But I quickly realized all of that doesn’t really matter at the end of the day. These things are like the sprinkles on top of the cake — nice, but not necessary.

I’d rather commit the year to improving myself all together and putting energy towards being the well-rounded, loving woman I know that I can be someday. I love my life and the adventures I’m about to embark on and I plan on doing the things listed above. But I know there is more to “it” than just that.

So as I sat in my last pose in my last yoga class of 2013 I set my intention for 2014: Create more love and bring it into all the different areas in my life. My career, education, relationships, yoga practice, and the things that bring me pain could all use less structure and more love. Pure, undeniable love makes the cake — marathons, good grades, a nice job, etc. are the sprinkles.

“Forgive others. Not necessarily because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace.” -Unknown
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I have really focused on coming from love when handling hard situations over the last 2 months. There have been times where my heart has ached, I’ve felt anger, confusion (ya lots of that) and betrayal. Moments where I had 2 options: be an emotional biatch or take a big deep breath and remember it’s better to be happy than right. I reminded myself that it’s not what happens to me in life, it is how I react. AKA I calmed my sassy brazilian ass down and let whatever was ruffling my feathers go.
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So when people or situations bring me pain I will choose to bring compassion, understanding, patience, forgiveness, and above all I will come from love. One of the most important lessons I learned in 2013 was that those who bring negativity and sadness to your life need exactly the opposite in return. They need love. It’s true.. those who hurt others need love more than we could ever truly imagine.

So here we go babes. Another year down where I hope you feel like you kicked some ass, but if not there’s good news… We have 365 days of blank pages and we can choose what we’d like to do with them. Isn’t that incredible?

So if someone is really awful to you and you’re not sure why, just think “Wow, you’re kind of an asshole. Maybe you need a hug?” How people treat you is their karma — how you respond is yours.

It will be hard to always be full of love because unfortunate circumstances are inevitable in life. All I know is that on December 31st when I’m looking back on the days of 2014 it will be impossible to feel regret when all I see is love.

Happy New Year dolls,

XOXO Bailey Mikell 4b6be466786d46c25eda788c9ce64e3a

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‘Thought I Couldn’t Breathe Without You, I’m Inhalin’

You never forget the burn that a failed relationship leaves. I look back on the times where I was so sure that making someone happy by being something I am not was the recipe to the ‘perfect relationship’. I was so mistaken! When you have feelings for someone it’s easy to start imagining how happy you’d be if they would just ‘love you’ as much as you ‘love them’. But why would you ever adjust the unique individual you are for someone who clearly does not see how brilliant you are? I’d always feel awful when I’d realize that he just wasn’t that into me. I’d try and figure out what I did wrong & what I could change so that he would “change his mind” & want to be with me. I’m sorry but fact of the matter is if someone doesn’t want you as you are then they don’t want you at all – & wanting them back is a waste of your time & good energy. Seek the person that adores every little thing you do. That wouldn’t change a thing about you & never let’s you question how they feel about you. I’ve had plenty of relationships that haven’t worked out & times of self doubt because of them but it’s not worth it!

As I got ready for my day with the man that makes me forget about all those who let me go in the past, Destinys childs music video ‘Survivor’ came on. The lyrics made me think about all the guys who said I wasn’t good enough & left me a little heart broken at the time but a lot happier today. I’m grateful that I didn’t end up with the guys I thought were ‘ideal’ at the time. It lead me to the love I’ve honestly always dreamed of. So when it doesn’t work out with someone you thought you could see yourself with, move forward with trust that it all happens for a reason & confidence that you don’t need anyone to be extremely happy. Celebrate who you are & be proud of the beauty you have within. When the right person comes along embrace it & celebrate each other in this life full of love. Until then, like I always say, don’t settle until you’re sold. The stress isn’t worth it – Waiting for a healthy, positive, rewarding relationship is.

Now that you’re out of my life
I’m so much better
You thought that I’d be weak without you
But I’m stronger
You thought that I’d be broke without you
But I’m richer
You thought that I’d be sad without you
I laugh harder
You thought I wouldn’t grow without you
Now I’m wiser
Though that I’d be helpless without you
But I’m smarter
You thought that I’d be stressed without you
But I’m chillin’
You thought I wouldn’t sell without you
Sold 9 million

I’m a survivor (What?)
I’m not gon give up (What?)
I’m not gon stop (What?)
I’m gon work harder (What?)
I’m a survivor (What?)
I’m gonna make it (What?)
I will survive (What?)
Keep on survivin’ (What?)

Thought I couldn’t breathe without you,
I’m inhalin’
You thought I couldn’t see without you,
Perfect vision,
You thought I couldn’t last without ya,
But I’m lastin’
You thought that I would die without ya,
But I’m livin’
Thought that I would fail without ya,
But I’m on top,
Though it would be over by now,
But it won’t stop,
You thought that I would self-destruct,
But I’m still here,
Even in my years to come,
I’m still gon’ be here.