Kelsey and I hiked to this perfect little spot where you can swim and explore in 2009. She was 5 months pregnant with Lincoln at the time. Today we decided to head to the same spot but this time Lincoln was able to climb the rocks and experience it with us. There is something about watching a child observe new surroundings that tugs at my heart. Curiosity is a beautiful thing and Lincoln is full of it.

We got there later than expected so the sun wasn’t shining on us. The water was absolutely freezing! When Lincoln eagerly followed us in without any hesitation I couldn’t have been more proud. It was the perfect end to the day. I am definitely going to sleep with a happy heart tonight.

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The Art of Opening Up

I enjoy spending time with myself. So on Sunday I headed to one of my favorite places to get a clear head: the mountains. Utah is truly beautiful, I’m blessed to call this state home.

Utah Hike
I sit before flowers hoping they will train me in the art of opening up. I stand on mountain tops believing that avalanches will teach me to let go. I know nothing. But I am here to learn.” -Shane Koyczan

It was different enjoying the treasures mother nature treats us to on my own. My pace was slower, I inhaled the fresh air with gratitude, and I discovered things I’d normally walk past.

My thoughts wandered and at one point I was convinced I had drifted from the trail I intended to follow. Then I started feeling all sorts of freaked out because of rattlesnakes (I was going through “Rattlesnake Gulch”)

My heart began to race and I had to stop, sit down, and chill out. I also needed to use my inhaler but that’s irrelevant. Suddenly a calm came over me and I knew I was going the right way. It reminded me how much self-doubt can consume us if we are not careful.

Here is a video from the top of the trail. There wasn’t anyone else up there so I sat and enjoyed my sandwich and quality time with the birds n’ bugs. This quick video does not do the beauty of where I was justice but I’ll share it anyway.

Sundays are the perfect day to fill your heart with the best things in life that we tend to overlook in our busy lives. What are your plans for the weekend? I’d love to hear what you do to clear your thoughts and get ready for a new week.

xoxo, Bailey Mikell

 

Sweeter Than Others

Dear January 14th…. we are in a fight.

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BUT, lets celebrate the beauty of today instead of highlighting the negative. I decided to take my frustration out in the kitchen and bake the cutest little banana bran muffins you’ve ever seen.

mini bran muffin

And of course I spilled granola all over my kitchen floor during the process. But don’t worry, Roman was there to provide me with some assistance..

Granola

AAAAND…. Lincoln turned 2 at the end of December & I couldn’t be more proud of the sweet boy that he is. I do believe being an auntie is one of the biggest blessings in the world. We played with his new toys, ate cupcakes, and smooched goodnight. I love him very much.

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It’s colder than a witches tit in the ‘tah. I’ve come to the conclusion that copious amounts of tea, bloody mary’s (which I’ve mastered), beer, and football are the only solution to the temperature being in single digits. Keep calm & drink/cheer the 49ers on.

January weather

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.”  Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
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Winter is always the hardest season for me, so meditation, yoga & daily affirmations are key to staying centered & balanced. The problem is I close my eyes for 10 minutes & when I open them this is my first thought….
what the fuck was I thinking about?
Oops. Some seasons are simply sweeter than others. Speaking of sweet, I decided to stop being an asshole & start dating again (& I may or may not have a crush…) What has January been treating you with? I miss all of you. Reach out to me so that we can reconnect, I’d love to hear what’s going on in your world.
All my love until next time, Bailey Mikell

Back to my roots

I have been missing my girlfriends, mum & co-workers a lot lately. My heart aches when I don’t get to see the gems in my life. So I packed the car up & Roman & I made our way to SLC for a few days. I feel like I am on vacation — yet I’m sitting here enjoying a cup of joe at my old desk.

I know I say it a lot, and to some it may be too much, but the blessings in my life never cease to amaze me. All I can say is I genuinely wish I could make sure everyone felt the same about their life. But sometimes, it’s just not that easy.

Happy Monday beautiful, shine on.

In the city

 

You Will Be Stronger

You had me second guess myself so many times that I’d be surprised to find a single doubt within if you asked me to look today. You led me astray more times than I chose to count. I fell flat on my face but I didn’t ever give up. My phone bill teetered towards overage charges for the first time since high school; I sobbed to my mum so many times our plan couldn’t keep up, yet somehow she always did. It’s been since I said farewell to my childhood that my lips have trembled like they did during this month. I crumbled in situations that I’d usually be holding down.

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And sometimes, if the stars aligned just right, I’d be at the end of a gut-wrenching day doing my best to catch my breath & I would suddenly find myself in an opulent moment. After letting those sporadic moments of bliss amongst blur confuse me for a while, I started using them as fuel: I knew if I consistently fought until I couldn’t anymore I’d start to see results. Slowly but surely, things began making sense.

April, I know we didn’t always see eye to eye, but our 30 days of trial & error together splashed color on my white walls & infused a deep appreciation within. Thank you for kicking me in the ass even though I was usually still trying to get up from the last time. And, thank you for teaching me how to be strong even when I am alone. I reached out to my incredible loved ones a lot, to say the least, but whenever a new situation arose I had to learn to adjust (still learning how)

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I guess I’ve decided that a firm reality check isn’t always the sweetest cup of tea, but it sure does make a pretty little promise — that this too shall pass, and when it does, you will be stronger. 

All my love until we meet again next year, xoxo, your little warrior

“April hath put a spirit of youth in everything.” (Sonnet XCVIII) -William Shakespeare

Running towards the unknown

  • Finals
  • Work
  • Worries
  • Money/bills
  • Insecurities
  • Self doubt

My doctor told me to squeeze a quick workout in when I need more energy after a day at work (ya, so not what I was wanting to hear) Did I listen? Yes. Did I do it? No. Today is a day for things I’ve never done, so I stopped the cycle of one bad habit: laziness. I have three articles due tomorrow & I need authentic energy right now. Instead of going for coffee, I ran.

Often when we go towards the unknown we are surprised with what we find — that was the case in this situation. I ran a new route and discovered my own personal haven. The road was freshly paved & barely big enough for one vehicle. To my left there was a field of freedom: calfs snuggled with their mommas while some just stood & looked at me curiously. To be honest, I would too if I saw a girl running her heart out while oozing with joy (it’s not sweat, it’s bliss – stinky bliss) & taking 849 photos. To my right there was an open field with the mountains behind it — it was the perfect mixture of natures finest.
I realize it’s hard to do some of the things doctors recommend — I’m a firm believer that although they are extremely educated & specialize in caring for our well-being, we know our bodies best. Just because you might not agree with “their way” doesn’t mean you can’t find another way. Take care of yourself by listening, and watching, your body. There are countless ways to be healthy that do not include weight lifting & marathons. Find what works for you & do it. When I’d rather not, I remind myself: our bodies keep track of everything we do, even when we do not.

In My Hands

After the wind howled all day & night yesterday it finally began to rain —  it was a relief hearing heavy drops patter against my windows instead of the wind shaking them. I’m not a huge fan of the wind when I’m alone.

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It’s quiet in our house today but I still can’t stop playing this (click text). Roman has a new favorite thing: mauling my head/attempting to eat my hair. I just don’t really care enough today to make him stop. All I ask is that my eyeballs stay intact.

When I saw this little piece of heaven on Pinterest something wonderful happened: My Boxcar Children days flashed right before my eyes. They were my favorite books when I was wee and I always dreamed of being a ‘boxcar-child’. The thought of living off of berries, cream, and stale bread from the local bakery was just perfect to me. It’s amazing how our idea of “perfect” changes as we grow. I’ve always had a special place for exploring, especially in the mountains (The Hatchet was also a favorite of mine)

Who wants to meet me there?

I hope you’re having a delicious Sunday & enjoying the first day of April. There’s just something about a new month that makes me feel like I’ve got the whole world in my hands. I hope you feel the same way, it’s pretty empowering.

All my love, Bee

Ps. We didn’t win the lottery. What the hell dude I thought the chances were good?..